You used that blood stained mirror that you placed on the floor to see who would be coming down the hall. you placed it against the wall on the floor so perfectly
so you see who was coming down the hall when you would get into my bed and abuse me over and over again. you cut my heart deeper than any knife could. you forever destroyed my soul. Every time I look into a mirror today I am reminded of what you did to me. You cut my heart and I bleed out. I scream for help but they don't hear my screams, nor my cries for help. My tears flow steady like a faucet turned on.
You stole my identity. I don't know who I am. I have anxiety attacks and panic attacks I don't like being around other people. I am scared all the time. Why did you hurt me why did you take my innocence ???????????? I hate you for what you did to me. you destroyed my life. you made me run from life instead of living a healthy normal life. I was spending all my life running from everyone and everything. Scared to close my eyes rocking myself to sleep thats how scared I was. I don't know how to have relationships. My entire family abandoned me as well as my friends nobody could understand why I was the way I was. My mind has never forgotten what you have done to me. I am all alone today are you happy answer me are you ? I don't know how to forgive I can't forgive nor will I ever forgive you for what you did to me. I missed out on life you selfish bastard. what did you do to me ? I will tell you what you did to me you shattered me into millions of pieces Leaving me to pick up the pieces. And I didn't know how to fix it . I didn't know how to fix it. I just didn't know to fix me. The constant thoughts of ending my life because of what you did to me. Please somebody help please, he's hurting me please stop him please.I take that sharp edged blood stained mirror and I stab it into my heart to stop the pain end my suffering. not wanting to live because the pain is to much to handle. End my suffering.I am numb. My screams turn into screams of losing my sanity losing control of my mental state. Having a nervous break down. when the thoughts of what you did to me hit me hard I feel I am going to lose my sanity. You bastard what did you do to me No No No don't touch me don't ever touch me again. You had no right no right. I hate you. Can you hear me losing my sanity ? answer me. DONT TOUCH ME , DONT TOUCH ME, DONT TOUCH ME. DONT TOUCH ME EVER AGAIN.It was my body and you used it for your own needs.I hate you. I am on my journey to healing. do you know i am scared to die because I don't want my last thoughts on my death bed be of you abusing me. I hate you. I can't ever forgive you.I have had to resort to doing drugs to mask my trauma so I wouldn't hurt as bad. Why did you destroy me ? I hurt so much. my eyes turn black and the tears that flow down my face turns blood. To serve as a constant reminder of what you did to me. How you cut me deep. Iv'e more to say but you not worth my time anymore. I'm destroyed. And I am in counselling and support groups.I am on my Journey to healing. you are not worth another though any longer I am leaving you behind. This Is about me know. No goodbyes. You are nothing to me and thought it's taking time to heal from what you did to me. I will get there because I am a strong and I am survivor. I am going to close this chapter no matter how long it takes and I am going to heal. I want to be free to soar the skies. Be what I want to be. And dream. And live. It's my time to heal.