I’m tired.
Leave me by the hospital doors,
No looking back.
Avoid my eyes,
Don’t hear my pain.
No more need to measure my worth with your measuring cups.
Give back my love before you go,
Should I try to build it again.
I’m tired,
My Dragon Lady, burning it all down.
Nowhere to anchor
So much haze
She’s so small,
She doesn’t know where to go, what to do.
Wishes she didn’t survive
This life not worth living
She can’t feel with half a heart,
Or navigate your rules.
Don’t take the chance,
She’s not safe for you.
Cover her eyes
Shut her mouth
Plug your ears
She can’t run with numb legs
Her cries won’t stop
Leave it all at the hospital doors
Save yourself
Wash your hands
Take your broken heart.
Author Statement
Navigating adult love relationships as a survivor is tricky when we don’t have the tools or understanding. Our behaviors can be hurtful to our families when we are fiercely protecting our little ones from feeling in unhelpful ways that are no longer serving us. I wrote this during a dark place where I didn’t have the skills to navigate my relationship in a healthy way.