MY RIGHTS

I have every right to feel the pain of what I went through
I have every right to say I should not have gone through these experiences

I have every right to still feel the afflictions of what I endured for years

I have every right to say it was never my fault to begin with
I have every right to say I was placed in a toxic and abusive environment

I have every right to express fully that not everything happens for a reason

I have every right to say I could not learn from certain experiences because those experiences should not have been lessons to have learned from

To me, that just sounds condoning, neglectful and invalidating

What happened to me is real
What they did was not okay

I have every right to shed my tears
I have every right to sniffle and frown

To break into pieces
To hate and be angry

I owe myself the self-validation I never once received from my so-called family

I deserve to not want to forgive
To not be pressured or made to feel guilty for not wanting to forgive

I deserve to do what feels best for me
Even if it differentiates from other people's perceptions

It is not about anyone but me

I am fed up with listening to others but disregarding myself
I am tired of putting myself in convos where my experiences are belittled

I was gravely abused throughout childhood, and it has been affecting me to this day

This I will admit
This I will not be afraid to admit

This I will stop feeling shame for
My inner child deserves to be heard, believed, understood and acknowledged

I will be the one to continue giving her that
For what she battled, no one will ever understand

Except herself and her Originator
Plus, the very few people on planet Earth who actually care about the hard things the rest of humanity are too prideful to speak about

—the end 💔